The Other Side of the Wild Shy Girl

"What's the matter, cat's got your tongue?" he said as I hid behind my mother's legs.  Jerk. As if that's going to help. He was loud, obnoxious, and in my space when not asked. So I hid and was condemned as it was something bad to do.

Wrong.

When my mother was dying, I went back to Montreal to help her with her transition. One day I went to her church group at her request to give a workshop. My grad 5 teacher, Miss Bishop, was there. She looked exactly the same right down to her blond beehive bun. I felt like I had been transported back in time.

"Do you remember me?" I asked. "Oh yes" she smiled as she responded. "How do you remember me after all this time? I inquired. "You were painfully shy" she said. “Wow” I thought.

Sometimes people come to me and say, "Oh but I'm so shy" I say, "that's okay. Me too." I just look like I'm not shy! Doing my passion overrides it all. Searching deep down provides me with the push that takes me over the edge of my shyness and places me front and centre with my mission from the great, most high divine order. And with that, my shyness can exist as I step out and make my way in the world.

Are there times when I have to 'cave dwell'? Sure are! But for me, that's just a gathering of energy, a refueling of my connecting to the divine, a re-orchestration of love for my self and humanity. I think I am the conductor of this mighty life, and it's true, I am. But… when I surrender to the will of the universe, all falls before me as if I was in the lap of God herself.

Now, I've made a company called Wild Woman Enchanted and I'm the author and illustrator of the Wild Woman Mystery Cards which was an intense experience just to create, never mind publish.

And it's a far cry from the shy little girl hiding behind her mothers legs. I step out, I step in, I even step behind . . . but I never let the cat get my tongue. I just say "Hey beautiful shy girl, what's up?" And she always says to me where she's at. Maybe I'm moving to quickly to stay grounded. Maybe I'm feeling something inside me that says, "this isn't right." Maybe I'm just not that into it, or maybe it's not safe and I need to reconfigure my foundation.

What ever it is… I know she's got my back in a serious way. I don't have to discard her, I only have to listen and partner with this wise soul that is part of me. When she shows up, I just realize I'm moving out of my comfort zone or something outside me doesn't see me in the way I need to be seen to feel safe. No need to stop. No need to go. No need to do anything, but acknowledge. No need to engage in someone else's energy. No need to fix it. Just acknowledge. Just stay present with myself. That's all. 'Cause I know, she's right there, helping me navigate my path, and keeping me in my truth.

Shyness has a bad rap in the global community. Being shy is not suppose to be a ‘good thing’. But I can tell you from experience, that is not true. She's amazing. She's alert. She's gentle and so very loving. She sees people in ways others can not see. And she loves to dance in the living room to her favorite music when no one is watching.

Does that mean she doesn't dream or step out? Hell no. She's a dreamer of dreamers just like the best of them. She just does it differently, kindly and with the softness of a feather. She will take your hand if you reach out to her and is willing to come out to play without a nudge when she feels heard, safe and passionate. She's so friggin' amazing. I wish everyone could know her.

So is she part of my Wild Woman? You better believe it. And I love her for being there. She's just as wild as the rest of them. She has a unique vulnerability that can take you places you didn't know existed. And with that, your heart can open into something so far beyond what you thought you knew, that all you can do is bend down on your knees and give thanks for having her in your wild life. Who knew?

With Love,

~Elizabeth xo

PS Tell me about the other side of your Wild Shy Girl . . .

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Elizabeth MacLeod BMus BEd PCP

Hi, I'm Elizabeth and I"m so glad you are here. Welcome!

I'm the author and illustrator of the Wild Woman Mystery Cards - An enchanting journey to your true self. I write, illustrate, teach and make Wild Woman Books and tools for your wild and most precious heart. 

My mission in life or my "savoir faire" is to let every woman know that it's your birthright to be who you are and it's powerful, graceful, wild, loving and beautiful to live your life from your own authentic place. 

I love big screen movies, meaningful words and anything sku blue and I'm passionate about women living their best life with their true selves. 

So passionate, I created what many call "Life's Cheat Sheet", a "great wonderful guide" for the Wild Woman. And it's FREE!